Checking in

It is cold and rainy but I am in a warm home with my loved ones. So life is good. I am weary beyond words from a rough week of treatment and travel. I have not had internet so I couldn't post. But it is back up as of just a little bit ago. I will post in the next couple days in earnest and tell you where I am and how I got here.

xoxo

Mind numbing...

I said when I moved into this house that I would never move again. I love it here. I had visions of taking my kids prom pictures on the front porch.

Well...not to be. What is that expression...I think it is a Yiddish proverb: "Mann traoch, Gott Lauch".....Man Plans, God Laughs. He has other plans for me and as sad as I am I know I am on the right path for me and especially my children.

I am about 7 boxes away from having this entire house completely ready to go to Michigan. The movers will be here at 8:00 tomorrow morning. I am astounded at the number of tears I have cried, although I know this move is a wonderful thing. I guess it is the transitions, leaving after almost 20 years, the after-shock of a mind-blowing year, the approaching end of treatments (even though I had another infusion this morning...3 or 4 more to go),....everything compounded! Hell, I didn't cry this much when I got diagnosed.

My sister Megan has the gift of soothing me with her words and actions. She just sent me a photo of the Sugar Maple that is outside my new bedroom window. She said it is just starting to turn. So she took a photo of it and sent is to me with love. Thank you Megan. It is gorgeous!!

All my sisters have wrapped their virtual arms around me, as have all of you. Thank you so much! I am so tired of it being about me. I am ready to be the giver instead of the receiver.

xoxo

Facing my fears...

I wish I had the energy to write everything that is going on in my life, my heart, my brain... and my body. As you know, we are moving. What you may not know is that we leave here in a week. Oh, my heart is so broken to leave. I am not sad about leaving Dallas but I am despondent to leave all my loved ones here. You guys mean the WORLD to me and I will be leaving a part of my heart here with you.

I feel so driven to get settled in Michigan. I am craving calmness, woods and stability. I am running on nearly pure instinct and intuition. This is such a big deal. The house we live in now is so lovely. I always say that it wraps its arms around us every day when we come home. Our new home in Michigan will be full of love too...in no time at all. The kids will settle into their new schools, I will have my final months of treatment with a new doctor (whoever that will be...I do not know yet), we will have new vets for the animals, new grocery stores, new phone numbers..........too many changes to mention. Most important is that we will be near Megan, Molly, Marty and the boys, as well as my loving Michigan friends.

I have cried a river of tears already but I am so excited too.

God is at the wheel....or rather I am at the wheel but God is my GPS.

Thank you for your continued support of me and my family.
Much love,
Maureen

Happy birthday, sweet boy!!

Oscar turns 7 years old today. I am proud beyond words of this special boy!

xoxo

Dallas

There are so many things I will miss about Texas...specifically Dallas. From the fried goodness at the State Fair (this year's newest addition: fried butter! seriously) to the Hill Country to the friendliest people in the world...I will miss so much about this place. It has been my home for 19 years.

And my friends.....oh my gosh.....the best friends in the world!!

I will post at some point specifically about what leaving Texas means to me.

But in the meantime I thought I would post about one thing I WON'T miss. A picture is worth....ya know....

xoxo

Mental head slap

I was feeling very sentimental and overwhelmed the other day…in a good way. And wanted to convey all this raw, wonderful emotion to Angelica and Oscar.

Me: You guys, we are so lucky…we have so many blessings. We have our health and we have each other and most important we have Jesus in our hearts.
Oscar: Mom, do worms have hearts?
Me: Well, um, I am not sure Oscar. But what I am saying is that we have so much to be thankful for. We are happy and healthy. We have a home and our family and our pets and …
Oscar: Mom, did you know some aliens have 9 arms and legs?
Me: Okay, that’s great, Oscar. Do you hear what Mommy is saying? I want us to always count our blessings.
Angelica: Mommy, my dolly has to go potty.

It may not have seemed like it but I am sure they were hearing me.

xoxo

Angelica on the Wii Ski Jump, Hula Hoop and Tightrope

Pay no attention to the mess surrounding our fun! I should be embarrassed to even show how many toys are scrattered on the fireplace. But these videos make me laugh so I wanted to share.

She cracks me up!!!