If there are any BOY readers out there, cover your ears and hum for this first part of my post.
Okay, the one side effect of the chemo that I was soooooooo looking forward to was the ONLY one I did NOT get. ***I started*** Jeepers! Can you believe it? Aunt Flo is visiting. What a rip off! I am going to call them tomorrow and tell them I want my money back. tee hee Just kidding. I am so grateful to have such amazing medicine and doctors. I should not joke like that.
Okay, guys, you can come back now.
I re-read my post from Monday and what I know in my heart but neglected to articulate in the post was that the reason my "why" or rather "how" thinking is foolish is because I know this is God's plan for me...and as tongue-in-cheek as I am about everything, this I know like I know my name. I know this is a part of His plan and I will not question it. He is faithful. I know He will give me enough strength for the day. I know each morning He will refill me for the coming day. Thank you for letting me indulge on Monday without judgement.
The greatest thing happened this week. I reconnected with one of the dearest people...someone that was my best friend and neighbor. We drifted. That happens. But I always get a warm feeling when I think about her. She moved out east. But we started e-mailing again this week. And it is like we never missed a beat. She is back in my life and I am thrilled! I would tell you her name but she is famous and you would all be hitting me up for an autograph. I wish I could share with you some small snippets of her eloquence but as I try to repeat it here it just loses something. So suffice to say, I am ecstatic to be in touch with her again.
Check this out. This is what keeps me going. This is my fuel, my sword, my armor (Abby-isms....oops I revealed her name! Drats!), my shield, my strength. I have saved every single card you guys have sent me. And when I need it, I sit down in the middle of the floor and pour them all out and soak in your words of encouragement...and read each one over and over...including every card, post and e-mail. You are the best friends and I stand taller in this fight because of ALL of you! Thank you...
One last thing. About 4 or 5 weeks ago I had a photographer, who I am proud to say is now my friend, come to the house to take our family pictures. A little history on how I know this lovely, talented person: her name is Amy Coffee and she participates as a volunteer in a program called Celebrating Adoption, a national organization of photographers that donate their time and talent to families with newly adopted children. Amy photographed us earlier in the year just after Angelica came home. But I asked her to come back again to capture us one last time before I lose my hair. She took some AMAZING pictures. She is wonderful! I love all the ones of me and the kids, but I have to say one of my absolute favorites is the one of Oddie with dirt on his nose next to the Tonka truck. I would title it "ALL BOY!". But I'm a goof ball. Sit back and enjoy these. There are a ton....so look when you have time. (By the way, like all outside links, I think you have to hit your back button to get back to here. Not sure how to set it for links to open in a new window)
http://www.printroom.com/ViewGallery.asp?userid=amycoffee&gallery_id=1338277
Oh...most important...Amy's website: http://www.impactphoto.us/. She donates a portion of each project to organizations she believes in. Hence the name "Impact". How cool is that?
Sorry for the ramble. Love to you all!
xoxo
4 comments:
Oh, Maureen, you just got me all weepy again! I am so happy to be back in touch with you again and I'm sorry it was under such stressful circumstances. But as you say, Gad has a plan and I believe people are in our lives for a reason. True friendship is timeless, as you and I have discovered.
Oh I was going to tell you which picture was my favorite, well that is impossible because they are all truly beautiful. I am so happy you reconnected with Abby. I told you that along with all the bad things that happen during this journey there are also some wonderful things that happen. I am so happy for you both. I loved all the cards and emails on the table. I still treasure all of mine and read them frequently. Love to you Maureen. Have a wonderful day. Love Barbara xoxox
You are gorgeous, inside and out! Oscar is absolutely dashing, and Angelica is just so squeezable. I looked at every single picture--great to see Megan!--and while each one is cherishable, I think I'm favoring the glamour shots with Scruffy (!!!). You all are beautiful. Thanks for sharing. I love you. --Janice.
I sear I feel technically retarded every time I want to post to your blog. I know it is so easy but I think I have a personal limitation with it. Given we work in software I expect more from myself, but everytime I want to comment on one of your blog entries I think I need flash cards and a step by step manual to press the right buttons. How embarassing!! It's ok if you want to delete me as a blogger - I am an not doing much for your blog image. Anyway, that was quite a prologue to tell you how incredible the pictures are. Every single one is so crisp and so in the moment - I feel like I was there and can see all the laughter you bring to your children and all the love you give to your puppies! I miss you so much and want to let you know how often you are thought of.
Much love,
38-year old who can't blog
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